mental health – Ink & Shadows: The Words of Osiris j Reapor

November 22, 2025

The Fear I Carry

There is a fear living in me that I can’t shake. It is not sudden. It did not crash into my life in one dramatic moment. It grew quietly, like a storm creeping over the horizon, and by the time I realized how dark the sky had become, it was already too late to pretend

“Ruined States”

There’s something about sleep lately that feels more like survival than rest. My body sleeps, but my mind remains in a battlefield—stuck in the endless cycle of nightmares, adrenaline, and anxiety. And when I wake up, there’s no peace waiting for me—just another kind of war. Anxiety has become a shadow I carry, a weight

Dear Dads: Show Up. Be Present. Change Lives.

I never wanted to be a dad. I was terrified of repeating the pain I grew up with. But fatherhood became the most important part of who I am. This is my story of healing, of showing up for my sons—and for the kids who needed someone like me. Not to take from mothers, but…